Update...

So here is a picture of my new boy, Rhett! I'm in Columbus for a few days so my sister is pup-sitting for me. Boy, does she have her hands full! Apparently he's been playin with Kibbles and bein' a good boy.. ha ha. So she says at least.

So let me think...

So I'm back in Columbus. Of course when I got back the day before yesterday my internet and phone didn't work. After hours of waiting for Time Warner I decided to take matters into my own hands. Their rep. couldn't fix my problem.. but.. I did! As the saying goes.. if you want something done..

The night I got home I hung out with Sean F. for a bit. We didn't go out til around 11:30 b/c of my pup. I had to take her to a friend's of my mom's ( vet ). She gave her some fluids and then I headed home to meet up with S.F. We went to Skyye then to Brother's. Wasn't the BEST time but we got to hangout so that's the important thing. Afterwards Shaun dropped me off at Scott's and I just crashed there. He took me home the next mornin'.. sweet of him. I slept til nearly 3 pm. Char was really sick when I got home and I felt really bad about leaving her while she was sick the night before.. even though she'd prolly rather me let her sleep!

Lastnight we went out again. Kristin and I had dinner plans so we went to Champps and I invited Sean to come along.. which he did. Before he got there I was totally diggin' our waiter so even though we had to wait for Sean for about half an hour the time flew by. After a while of flirting with Nic ( the waiter ) I handed off my # and we decided to meet up after he got off of work. Yes.. girls DO take the initiative when they want it bad enough! So Sean Kristin and I headed to Skyye again and I of course got my drink on. ;-) Then we headed to B. Hamptons to meet up with Nic. Good idea.. he was a doll. Then I went back to his place.. ;-) And might I add.. he had the cutest pup ever!

So now I need to get in the shower.. return some calls ( not that I know who half of these ppl are .. which tends to happen the day after a night of drinkin! ).. Who knows what the plans are for tonight!!

... of course I have to end the post with my baby girl!

Back to Columbus..

So after my sunburn wears off a lil I'm headed back to Columbus. This will be on Thursday. I was going to head home tomorrow but I dont think I'll be able to move! Well, actually.. my sis wants to see a movie so I'm gonna go with her and Justin. I'm ALWAYS the third wheel out here. I need to get back to Columbus and find me a guy. Not a permanent guy.. but you know.. a guy. I'm hopin' Scott isn't busy.. cuz he's hot and I "enjoy" bein' around him! ;-) Plus, this eliminates the whole finding a guy process!!

Anyways.. momma and daddy hit with me TWO out of the blue things today...
1. a new car
2. a new job
.. both NOT good. Here is why...
A new car? Well, not a 2006 or anything.. but a new Subaru!! They told me it was a surprise! Well, it certainly was a "surprise".. not the good kind. Suburas are ugly.. My parents buy me a camaro when I'm 15.. then they give me a Blazer... and now a Subura? Something is wrong with this picture! I feel bad tellin' them no.. but my gosh... there are cheaper vehicles that I like more.. ugh! I'm such a brat..

Then my parents tell me that my dad is willing to hire me for the summer. I'll be doing office work for him and the pay is REALLY good.. but two things.. I don't want to be the lil brat that gets a job b/c my dad is everyone's boss.. and second.. I'm NOT staying out here for the summer. I'd be miserable. I think he did this b/c I told him to hook me up with some of the hotties out at the mines. However.. this wasnt exactly the route I was thinkin' he'd take! Again, I feel bad saying no!

Sht like this always happens when I come home!!

.. Bed ..

Azlynn link..

http://azlynn.us/

http://azlynn.us/nursery.htm

... this is Dave Waddell's page ... You can see the other two puppies that I chose Rhett over.. it was sooooo difficult b/c I nearly went with that cream female!! There is the black "spastic" pup ;-) She's beautiful ..

Just Ramblin'

So I just stepped out of the tanning bed. It was soooo relaxin' and now I'm all ready for bed. Charlotte is sleeping on one side of me and Rhett is chewing on a pig ear on the other side. He can be a handful but he is just so calm to be a pup. He doesn't wake me up at night and he even takes naps with me. He does his fair share of whining and he hates the crate training.. but overall I'd give him an A+. He's even doing fantastic with potty training.. but I suppose that's what you get at 4 months. Perfect age to train. Charlotte despises him and she tries to bite him nonstop. It's driving me nuts really. I'm so scared for her to get that freaked out b/c of her weak heart. She starts coughin' like crazy and poor Rhett has no idea what's going on. I try to give her most of my attention though.. just so she knows she isn't being replaced.

The other animals are doin great. Chewbacca is being social and the cats are crazy playful. Especially Belle.

So let me think back to what's been going on the last few days...

The dog show was ok. More tiring for momma and venus than for me. Venus sold catalogs and Momma had to put up/tear down tents and rings. Not to mention doin' other little jobs. I talked. A lot. To random people. I thought about goin' to our RV and sleepin'.. but I thought that may be a lil rude!! Momma showed veiled on the first day of the show. She placed 2nd in bitches.. then she went back in the ring for reserve bitch b/c the rottie that beat her won overall breed. Then the second day Bob, Veil's potentially new handler, showed her. She took second again. Come to find out... Veil had too much black on her face for the judge's liking. Ah well.. Veil is doin great to be a pup and she WAS one of the prettiest rottie bitches there. She just needs to fill out a lil more... which takes time.

So after Veil showed the second day I phoned some man about an ad for poodle puppies in West Virginia. He told me to drive on out and see the pups. there for 4 there. 3 creams and 1 black. The black girl was a bit spastic. And I was drawn to Rhett. He was the first and last pup I touched there. So anyways.. while talking to the guy, Dave Waddell, I had told him to excuse my muddy clothes b/c I had just got back from the dog show. We started talking about it and he told me that he didnt go b/c of all the mud and rain. Anyways, I started talking about my mom and her rottie and he's like " I'm your mom's teacher." I told him to give her a hard time at the next handling class!! He promised me he would.. ;-) So then I go back by the show and had Rhett microchiped and showed mom the puppy. She couldn't go with me b/c she had to work at the show. Anyways.. I told her that it was her handling teacher's puppy and she was like " no kidding?".. it's a small world i suppose.. who would have known. The crazy thing is right after I got off of the phone with Dave I went and told my mom about where he lived and what all he said. Some lady was standing there and said " I bet you are going to Dave Waddells".. and I'm like " I have no idea what his name is " .. well it didn't even click with my mom!! She was just pissed at me b/c I said " I don't know his name but I know he's gay" .. apparently the whole tent heard me say it. She was pretty mad.. but I didn't see the big deal. If he's gay he's gay, right? But right after I said he was gay the lady knew exactly who I was talking about AND told me he had a "partner". So HA!

Anyways... so i've gone out and bought Rhett a bed and two collars/leads.. toys.. new tags.. treats.. he's been chipped.. and now he's gets neutered on the 30th. He's hunching me.. no one else.. just me! Mom says it's a dominance thing.. apparently i come off as weak and submissive.. haha. No surprise.. ;-) Anyways.. I just can't wait til he's clipped. I only feel one testicle as of now so I'm hoping he other drops soon.. I don't want him to keep these bad habits.

What else.. hmm... I'm about to head back to Columbus. I need to pay my rent and whatnot. I'm thinking I'll head back around Thursday. Or maybe Wed. night. I won't bring Rhett or Charlotte just incase I go out and stay out late. Hopefully they'll be ok without me. I dont trust a whole lot of people to pupsit.. even my own family. I know it's pathetic but I worry to no end.

Not much else is going on.. a whole lot of eatin' and spendin' time with the family (that includes the pets). I always come out here and I never talk to any of my friends b/c of the lack of cell phone service. So hopefully everyone is doing well. Maybe I'll see some of them when I head back to town.

Dad seems to be doin' ok. He managed to mow the lawn. Bless his heart. I shoulda done it for him. He needs to head back to the doctor but no one can talk him in to it. I told him he needed to hook me up with some of his workers. He just laughs and says they have too many piercings! He said if they can't get around a magnet then they can't get around me. I told him to remember my type.. hot..lol. I also told him to get me a job for the summer. The pay is kickass but he told me i'd actually have to work and he didn't know if I could handle it.. he thinks I'm spoiled for some reason. ;-) VENUS is spoiled.. atleast I've actually had jobs. She's never ever had one single job in her life. However.. I'm the one that usually gets what I want.. probably b/c she doesn't whine about things constantly. When I get my mind set on something then I HAVE to have it. Unfortunatley.

Anyways.. I'm beat. and it's 2 am. I'm sure momma will wake me up early like she always does ( GRRRR )... or the puppy will have to go potty...

Pictures will be loaded soon. I'll have to wait til I get to Columbus so that I can use my laptop and dock to get the pics on my pc.. can't do that here.

*hugz*

.. It's a BOY!

After weeks of searching.. the new addition to the blackburn family has been found. His name is Rhett ( Butler ) < -- I'm a southern belle so of course I'd name my baby boy after Gone with the Wind! He is absolutely precious.. a bit older than I had anticipated ( 4 months ) but he is such a fantastic pup. He came from a professional poodle handler ( who actually teaches my mom's handling classes but we didnt know that until AFTER... momma didnt go with me! long story.. explain later ) ...

Anyways.. it has been a LOOOOONNNNGGGG day... so Charlotte, Rhett, Belle, Tolkien, Willy wonka, and Chewbacca are going to bed... *yawn*

I'll post his pic soon!! YAY!!

NEW PUPPY!

I'm off to pick up my new puppy!! There are 5 pups to choose from... I'll post a picture of Rett or Akasha.. depending on whether I get a baby girl or baby boy!!!

We'll see how Charlotte feels about her new sibling.....

Feels good to be home!!

I'm already living the life and I've only been here for 4 hrs!

So I pull in at around 12 am. Of course Momma was waitin' up on me and she helped me carry in my five pets and some of my bags. Gosh.. they were soooooooo heavy. Not only did we have to carry tons of crap in but we had to carry it up stairs to the loft bedroom where I stay. Kills my knees as well as mommas! I was starved when I got in bc I hadn't had a bite to eat all day so momma cooked me something up real quick. Ahh.. then she topped it off with some dessert!! I was thinking " why don't I visit home more often?" We got all the pets settled in and then she basically said goodnight. Diddy was already asleep b/c he has to work early.

So here I am... allllll tucked in to bed with momma's sweetazz laptop. It's way cooler than my old thing. Plus, she has wireless internet. Momma was naggin me about gettin up early to help setup.. YEESH... I'm gonna have to wake up in 4 hours! That bites.

I'm considering going down and sneaking into some goodies. But if I leave then I have to carry Charlotte up and down 500 sets of steps and that sucks. She has already fallen down them once... and it was a looooong way to the bottom. NEARLY GAVE ME A HEART ATTACK!! Not to mention there is a german shepherd and a rottweiler standing guard outside of my bedroom. Reminds me of when I first started dating.. ;-) Momma use to have the dogs right by the door to bark when I got in.. damn dogs got me grounded every week! This time the worse they could do is wake momma and diddy up and let em know I'm in the cookie jar.... which may, or may not, get me grounded ;-p haha!
Anyways... off to the cupboard i go with my poodle in tow...

Out with the old... in with the new

So, I feel ... rejuvenated. As sort of a ritual, throughout my relationship with Shaun I created a Shaun box. I've done this with 3 other boyfriends.. Eric, Ben, and Jeremy. I know it's sorta dorky.. but oh well. So after watching Shalom in the Home I decided to take a bit of the advice. I was feeling particularly pissed at shaun so I took his box, which housed every piece of our relationship from around my apartment, and threw it away. Pictures, notes, cards, letters, picture frames, stuffed animals, even his coat... it's all gone. I didn't even hesitate. I've even blocked his email and #. So anyways... I feel pretty good about it. And now.. that's it. No more even bringing him up from this point on.

So that was the "out with the old" ..

Now where the hell is my new?

I'm so glad I'll be away for awhile. =) I'll be at the dog show all weekend. Volunteering my services for free. Momma better love me for helpin out!! I wonder if I'll be selling the microchips? I know I'm suppose to help setup... and I'm such a wimp! I dont know how I'm gonna carry anything.. I mean, hell, I don't carry in my cat food or cat litter from the car until friends come over and do it for me!! I guess this means I don't get to wear my cute new dress. Ah well.. I'm sure there won't be any hot guys at a dog show anyways..

Anyways.. long drive tomorrow. I still didn't even finish my packing. I dunno why I pack so much to momma and diddy's when I know I wont use hardly anything I packed. I've devoted one entire suitcase to shoes alone. I'm such a girl..

Sad day...

So my ex Eric got ahold of me today. I had been wondering why I hadn't heard from him and I sorta got kinda pissed that he hadn't called me for a while.. turns out his dad committed suicide. =*( I really liked Alan.. what a sad thing. I wasn't quite sure of what to say to Eric.. the only thing I could offer was my support..

I've been puppy shopping with momma all day. It's simply exhausting. I want a large dog so bad ( either boxer or standard poodle ) but my living arrangements doesn't allow for it. So, I've narrowed it down to the teacup poodle or pomeranian. We saw all sorts of potentials today.. but.. haven't chose a pup yet. It will be difficult..

Anyways... bed time.

Brian Shaffer's Pearl Jam Tickets

To anyone who reads this.. if you know any Pearl Jam fans out there please let them know about these tickets. Everyone wants Brian ( the missing Ohio State med student ) to return home safe. So, post this anywhere that you possibly can..

Thanks so much!!

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Brian Shaffer's Pearl Jam Tickets
Body: Brian purchased tickets for the two of us to see Pearl Jam in Detroit at the Palace of Auburn Hills on May 22. He is a member of the Ten Club, Pearl Jam's fan club, and he purchased his tickets through them. When the Ten Club members buy tickets, they have tickets reserved in their name that they pick up at the box office the night of the concert. The seats are reserved on the floor or in the section directly next to the stage. Brian has been a Ten Club member for a long time, so they should be fanastic seats. I got permission from Ten Club to auction off Brian's tickets to help us raise money for Brian's reward! I have them listed on ebay, and they will be available to be bid for starting Wednesday May 17 at 12:00pm, and that will last for 3 days. So, if anyone is interested in bidding on them, or if you could spread the word about this, I would really appreciate it. Again, here is the information:
Pearl Jam Concert TicketsFloor/section next to stagePalace of Auburn Hills, DetoidMay 22, 7:30 pmSale on ebay starting Wed. May 17 at 12:00 for 3 days!The money will go to the Brian Shaffer reward fund!
Thank you very much!Alexis Waggoner

Change of plans..

So.... I won't be heading home for a couple of days. I told Kristin I'd do dinner with her on Wednesday and Brian may come. Either he comes do dinner or I get fat doing lunch with him and then dinner with kristin. Just makes more sense to me to do dinner with them both. And whoever else decides to come along.

I told momma to go ahead and give me my rent money and I'd pay that before I leave. I figure I'll head home around Thursday. I always hate going home right before the weekend though. Cuz there is NOTHING to do out there except sit on my ass and eat a lot. Well, I suppose there is always the tanning bed! And they live on the lake and have a pool table and all sorts of other goodies.. so it's not so bad. It's a life of luxury that I've been removed from since moving out here to lebanon. But still.. the weekends make me miserable!!

Anyways... that's that. Momma and diddy will probably have to pet sit for me b/c I'll have to come back to Columbus to visit with Sean Forsythe. He's comin in for a few days ( or maybe a week ) and it's his birthday so I'd really like to go out and celebrate that with him!! Of course my parents won't be too thrilled about that! And I'm not too thrilled about all the driving .. and LEAVING MY DOG FOR A NIGHT ... but oh well..


Anyways.. I'm cramping and emotional ( gotta luv bein' a girl ) so tonight I'm curlin up in bed and watching some of my hot men on CSI Miami... mmmmmmm! I can obsess over them even more now that I'm very single...

... breakups SUCK but family ROCKS

ok.. so not to sound conceited.. but getting a date is not too difficult for me. However, the thing that sucks about breaking up with someone you've been dating for over two years is that they can't be replaced quickly. So basically I just sit around pitying myself and missing him when I need to just suck it up.. go out.. find me a guy .. and do this whole dating/breaking up thing all over again!! But.. that's easier said than done as well. Not to mention I'm steal dealing with this whole sexual assault that happened in Nashville so its hard to trust people or feel comfortable around males. The one guy that I've let in juuuuust a lil ended up disappearing on me.. AGAIN.. which I suppose is just the dynamics of the relationship. I keep comparing people to Shaun and while I thought he was an ass while we are dating.. I'm only comparing potential dates to the good things about him. I haven't cried.. which is always good. After the saga with Eric, my much regretted dream beau, I've learned that tears are only for the good moments in relationships. Plus, Shaun cried enough for the both of us. It's strange to go from dating assholes who don't show emotion at all to date Shaun who is, to be quite honest, an emotional wreck. I've attempted in every way possible to show him how much I care and the guestures were just never reciprocated. So now it's time to deal with it.. pack away every last shread of relationship evidence that is around my apartment.. lean on friends .. and focus on the other aspects of my life that I've almost forgotten existed. If Kristin isn't busy tomorrow maybe I'll get to see her.. she always has a brutally honest way of tellin' me that Shaun is an ass and I'd be better off with someone else. And as much as I'd like to scream that she's wrong.. she couldn't be more right. I luv ya girl. So anways after I see Kristin ( if I do ) then I'll probably tidy up the apartment, pack up some things, round up the herd, and head on home to be with my momma, diddy, and sissy .. and Justin b/c he feels more like my brother than brother-in-law.. always helping me out. My family always has a way of taking me in, laughing with me, teasing me, and we live the simple life.. we lay around and watch movies, eat some home cooked meals ( southern style! ), and most importantly we spend time with our animals. It's great b/c even though I can't reach people or let people reach me 100% my family is right on. I'd hope all families are like that. However, it's been my experience that I'm a bit more open with my family than most. I talk about every single aspect of my life and every single experience I have.. ranges from sex to studying. And I never hesitate to tell momma that diddy is cranky cuz he wants some tang. ;-) I love my parents.. and my extremely shy genetically linked best friend, Venus. Anyways .. enough bout that..
DaVinci Code on FRIDAY.. I love tom hanks, paul bettany, and the book so I'm thinkin it will be a great movie..

Alright... enough about life... it's nearly 4 so I should down some type of sleep aid and TRY to sleep. I worry too much about my dog to sleep peacefully on my own.. =(

Yup.. it's a sunday.. nothing new!

So at 4 am charlotte decides to vomit everywhere... I had to get up and clean the mess and her! Bless her heart.. its a tough job takin' care of a sick puppy.

Momma and diddy stopped in yesterday. They brought a new pup from down south.. transvylvania to be exact. The strangest thing.. the dog has never used the bathroom outside! It's previous owner taught it to use a rug or something ( i know, weird and yucky ).. so now momma, diddy, and my sissy are all trying to teach it how to go potty outside. Momma tried to give the dog to me and i considered it since charlotte will be leaving me soon.. but it is already nearly a year old and I can tell it has an affinity with my mom. Plus, i've never been big on the chihuahuas. I haven't ruled out getting one of his pups in a few months but I want to focus on charlotte for now. I'm thinking I'm gonna go with a teacup poodle anyways... or a boxer. Or maybe both ;-)

Anyways... I went to dinner with the rents yesterday. It was nice.. plus I loooooove italian food. Surprisingly my parents were in a very chipper mood .. odd since they had just drove alllllll the way back from louisiana. They stopped by some casinos.. lost more money than they won!! But.. that's what ya get for gambling.. they enjoyed themselves though and that's what matters. With diddy bein sick and all it's great that they still are able to get out and about and spend quality time together.

So I got to talk to Jacob the other night. Apparently he's been having some health problems. He's such a fun guy.. never a dull moment around him. He's so real too... I love that about him. Crazy boy he is...

Well, that's it for now.. off to find something productive to do..

ehh.. maybe.. ;-)

nothing special...

Ok.. I'm bored. I'm tempted to go out and find some guys to charm.. however, i've recently renounced all men.

I just got back from the vet. I had to go pick up some more Lasix for Charlotte and discuss her diet. Looks like she'll be on K/d until wednesday when the H/d comes back in <-- prescription food for those of you who don't know. She hates all of the food so I reckon it doesn't really matter as long as the salt content is low.

I've finally calmed down from yesterday's events. Talking to Misty lasnight helped. She's nutty and she got me thinkin bout all the good times in Bama when we were younger. What I wouldn't give...

GRRRRR....

So today was a complete disaster. I didn't go to bed until late b/c of Charlotte and then I had to get up early because I was expecting a few packages. I got my goodies *2 pairs of shoes YAY and mother's day gifts*and then talked to my sister for awhile. We rarely get to talk anymore so I'm trying to make more of an effort. She's my bestest best friend and I luv her to pieces. Anyways, Shaun calls and tells me that we are having dinner at 5. So in the midst of getting ready he calls again and tells me that his family was running late so it would be 5:30. So I get ready and run a few errands and then kiss my pup bye ( never know when it will be the last ). Then I follow shaun's directions. I call him a couple of times to see if I was correct and he was all insane b/c of the traffic so he needed to keep letting me go. FIVE people in the car.. and SHAUN drives. Like he didn't know I was going to call and he would have to finish his directions. So ONE HOUR later and after 15 near deather experiences I call Shaun. I was venting about the traffic b/c someone had just cut me off WITHOUT a BLINKER and he starts getting pissed b/c he thinks I'm griping at him. I tell him that traffic was hell and he sent me on a suicide mission. He told me that he'd never seen traffic like this before.. WTF? 5:30 on a weekday.. umm.. DO YOU EVER LEAVE YOUR APARTMENT????? So we get into an argument and he basically lets his whole family know about it. So I tell him I'm turning around and going home. Seriously.. HE told me to turn on VANTAGE.. there WAS NO VANTAGE! Then he gets pissed b/c I'm lost? Grrr... Happy Graduation Shaun.. I hope you are miserable!!!!!!

Anyways.. that just confirms the reason why we are broken up. It is IMPOSSIBLE to get along with him. I've decided that I'm not getting in any new relationship with a guy from the North. The guys from the North have all sucked..and while they are fine for northern girls.. I expect a redneck, down home, beans and taters eatin, slow speakin' MAN from the South. The ones that work hard and aren't afraid of gettin dirty. The ones that open the car door for you, brings you hairdye at midnight TWICE ( long story ), follows you home even if its a 30 minute drive at 2 am just to make sure you get home safe... the ones that sacrifice everything to make you happy while making you feel like that's the way its suppose to be! Nope... certainly haven't found that here. Only in the SOUTH...

K... I'm off to find dinner now that plans have been canceled.

For the SNL fans all across America..

I've invested in my very own "laser cat"... I'm certain that he shall defend me from strays.

Anticipation... ?

Ok, so Charlotte had a bad night lastnight. I layed down with her and watched her for, no kidding, 7 hours. She was breathing so deep and I could see her poor little heart beating like crazy. She pulled through though and now she seems to be ok. Not great or good.. or well.. but ok. Her breathing has slowed down a little and she ate some chicken I cooked for her. I was suppose to go out to dinner tonight.. but I had to cancel. Being with her is more important to me than dinner with anyone in the world. It's weird to anticipate death. I know she'll die soon and Im ready to accept that.. it's just going to be soooooo hard on me. Shes been by my side for 18 years now and shes a major part of my daily routine. The medicine twice a day, meal time 4 times a day, the dog walks, bed time.. the readjustment is going to be difficult.

So tomorrow is the big dinner with Shaun and his family for his law graduation. He wants to come visit tonight to "see charlotte" but I'm positive he doesn't care THAT much. He cares that I'm upset about it but shes my dog so no one really gets it... especially shaun. Regardless, it is a very kind thought. The dinner with him and his family will be interesting I'm sure. I'm not certain if his Uncle Steve will be there. I hope he will.. he's just a barrel of laughs. I doubt I will see his father.. which I feel bad about. I'm under the impression that Shaun's mother and sister both do not want to see Shaun's dad.. and Shaun's dad doesn't want to be there if Shaun's Uncle Steve will be there.. so I dunno what will happen. I believe I'll go to dinner with Shaun's family tomorrow night ( - his dad ) and then Shaun will do dinner with just his dad after his hooding. I still have no idea what I'm going to get Shaun for his graduation. The kid has everything so I'm thinking I'll just go sentimental. I mean.. how many watches could I possibly buy him? ;-)

Anyways.. I may go to the tanning bed again tonight. It's addicting. I really don't want to leave charlotte but I'll only be gone about 25-30 mins. Idol comes on too.. so I gotta be here for that. Anyways.. I'm gonna go finish up my laundry. Oh.. I was sooooooo embarrassed. I went down to put my laundry in and someone had their clothes in the washer. So I was like.. "well, I REALLY need to do some laundry .. and they may not come back for awhile.. " so i just took their stuff out and put it on the dryer. OF COURSE the guy who owned the laundry walked in right when I was pulling his underwear out.. how humiliating. I quickly left and checked my mail until he left the laundry room. ugh... boxer-briefs though... got love a man who wears hybrids ;-) hah..

... yeesh ... bad things just keep on keeping on. My mother's trip to Louisiana had to be cancelled, my puppy is getting worse, and now there is a funeral on the agenda. I'm walking toward the light.. I swear. Seeing the gynecologist sure didn't make my week any better. It is the worst day of the year. Im sure every girl feels that way.. I hope so at least. Anyways, I just thought I'd post a quick one. I'm in the midst of cleaning.. and we all know how intense that is for me ;-) American Idol and House has already stalled me for 2 hours.. it's time to bring it! hah..

**tsk, tsk**

Some people are a source of constant disappointment..

.. that's all I gotta say 'bout that...

R.I.P Conan and Nina

Our pupper Conan died yesterday. I just looked at his photo. I sure do miss him a lot already. But at least he won't be grieving over Nina dying a couple months back. They were practically inseparable. I love them both and I miss them enormously!





So yesterday I went out with Kristin, Bryan, and Angie. We are all a bunch of goofs. Of course, I'm probably the biggest dork out of the bunch. I wanted to treat them to dinner b/c they managed to get me an extra set of season football tickets. YAY! I told Bryan and Angie they were more than welcomed ( practically encouraged ) to come to a couple of the games with me. I would say Kristin too but she won't be living in columbus by then. My daddy probably won't be able to go to very many of the games so I'll probably have some to spare! Anyways, the initial plans were to go to Olive Garden. I got there before everyone else and the hosts/hostesses were practically guarding the entrance. I don't know what I was thinking but I basically tried to doze them down. They gave me this 5 minute explanation of how the transformer was hit and whatever. They told me I could go in and eat salad and booze and as great as that sounds to me ( ha ha ) I figured the rest of the gang would decline. So anyways, we ended up at Applebees. I actually despise Applebees but that's where everyone wanted to go so I was up for it. The only place I said no to was Max & Ermas.. YUCK! But anyways, for the most part I'm pretty agreeable and I like for others to be happy... which I hope they were. So of course I end up talking to two guys at Applebees. They were from across the street at Carmax. I was a bit flirty but I hadn't realized they were married. Iwas really innocent so I don't feel so bad. They were such cuties. I'm sure everyone enjoyed makin fun of me for it!

So after dinner Angie drove us back to my car and I drove Kristin home. A 15 minute drive turned out to be 60 mins with Kristin's interpretation of Bryan's directions. At one point she was certain she knew where we were but the road was a deadend. We were like out in delaware or something ridiculous. I ended up calling Shaun and he steered us in the right direction. He also managed to get me home after leaving Kristin's new place. I stayed at Kristin's for a bit cuz the kitty was there and so was kristin's roommates ( who apparently thought I was wasted b/c of my aloofness and hyperactivity! ) Sometimes I just have those moments and my poor friends probably want to kill me! Comments like " He's as slow as a 500 y/o sabre tooth tiger " probably doesn't help me look sane or sober!

Anyways, the day was a success. It's always good times when Kristin and I hangout. Plus, I just luv Bryan and Angie! So, I'm off to take a shower. WOOHOO.. CSI tonight!!

mmm... sleeeeeppp....

It's 12 pm. I just took a shower and I'm thinking about going back to sleep. Afterall, I've only had 10 1/2 hrs of quality snoozing. That's only half of what I'm use to. Maybe a small nap b/c I'm having dinner with Kristin, Angie, and Bryan tonight. I haven't really eaten in days so I'm thinking a meal would do me some good. If only I don't faint before tonight!

I sorta want to go to the tanning bed. However, I'll be at momma and daddy's on Monday and since they have a tanning bed.. I figure it would probably be a waste of money to go. Oh, and a waste of precious energy. Grr...decisions, decisions!

Jordan called lastnight. Well, I think it was about midnight. Yay! Our conversation was interesting, as usual. I'll spare you from the majority of it .. but he did tell me he had a "scooter crash". Who crashes on a scooter? Jordan apparently. Luckily, he walked away with practically no injuries! A few roadburns and whelps. Most of the damage was done to the scooter.. it lost its BLINKER! Poor thing.. tsk tsk. He may be in the states for the michigan game. That would be pretty sweet... not that football is his thing.. but I think he could be good times at the game! We shall see...

Ok.. I think it's time for the nap. One more thing.. HOUSE!! What an incredible episode lastnight. I'm bummed I won't be here for the episode tonight, but I sure am going to record it!! YAY! Can't wait... Oh, and Idol was pretty good too.

Nostalgia, Naggin', and Naptime!

It's 3:30 a.m. and I just got in. I layed down with Charlotte on my bed for about 10 mins until she fell asleep. Then I slowly got up and downed a bottle of water and exchanged a few words with 'S'. Maybe the two of our schedules will eventually work out. Til then.. I wait.

With my mom and doctor nagging at me to see a psychologist or counselor I'm beginning to uncover all the problems that I had seemingly buried. Blah. It would probably take days to list them all. My mother seems to think this guy from Nashville is the worst of my problems. If she only knew. Thinking back to when I first moved to Columbus.. wow! I was at the lowest point in my life. If it weren't for Richard, Sean F, Mike, and Russ I dunno how I would have made it through. Anyways, they are also trying to wean me from the zoloft. Looks like instead of sleeping the day away my OCD will trigger some serious cleaning spells! Not that it would hurt! I need to wash my curtains. Hard telling how many dust bunnies are living up there.. now I'm going to have trouble sleeping!

I'll be calling my aunt olline tomorrow. Again, my mother is doing some serious naggin'! I need to take all of my sister's ( Venus ) wedding stuff over there. I have the flower girl's dress here and boxes of stuff that I don't even know the contents of! I reckon the most important thing is for my aunt olline to see the color of my bridesmaid dress. I told her it was celadon.. but apparently she can't figure out what that is without my help. Go figure! I love my aunt olline to death.. she is the only link that remains between me and my real father ( well, if you don't consider genes and whatnot ;-p) .. but lordy! She is a bit much to take. Sometimes it can be very overwhelming being in the same room with her. The gossip, and repeat stories, and ginormous hugs.. not to mention she is going to make me eat every last crumb in her house!

So I'm missin' so many people right now. I can't wait to hear from Jordan. The time difference between New Zealand and here causes us to always miss eachother's calls. I can't believe he'll be living in New Zealand for good. Selfishly I hope he changes his mind. Of course, he moved to Columbus Ohio to be next to me and I think I saw him twice in months. My relationship with Shaun didn't really allow me to see many other people. I'd go back and change it if I could. Ah well.. I still luv him! Whether he lives in New Zealand or the US. He's one of the few people I view as unique and odd as myself. *sigh* I sure do miss all my alabama people too :-( Well, not ALL of them but a good bit! Oh, I heard from Lackey last night... well actually at 4:30 am! He ALWAYS calls me when he's drunk.. but at least he calls me, right? He just cracks me up I swear. I can't wait to remind him of some of the craziness he shared with me!

... there is one person I'm wondering about lately ... I'm not sure whether to be worried that I haven't heard from him or pissed?

Anyways.. I was going to write more but I'm spent. I need to get back to the pup before she realizes I'm gone!!!