It's about 12:30. Jordan just crashed and I'm about to head to bed myself. My eyes hurt so bad. Jordan had never watched the notebook.. SO.. we watched it tonight. I cried 16 times ( yes, I counted ) during the movie and then half an hour after the movie ended I called dan and cried more. He thought someone had died b/c he couldn't understand anything I was saying I was sobbing so much! I knew better than to watch that movie again. Every time I do I'm depressed for about a couple of weeks afterwards. Ugh. In part because I'm getting old. In part b/c I can relate to that movie. In part b/c I will never have that fairy tale ending. In part b/c I can never have Ryan Gosling.. this being of course the worst part of all!!

So tomorrow morning we're goin by and seein' Jordan's friend Erin. She just had a baby so I CAN NOT WAIT. I want a kid sooo bad! Anyways.. then after that it is off to have lunch with Dan. Then we're going to drive around for a bit and look at potential spots for a cafe. THEN we're meeting up with about 6 or 7 people for dinner. Could be fun.

Anyways.. since I can barely see.. and since rhett needs to go potty.. and since we have a long day ahead of us tomorrow.. I should get some sleep. Night.

Just wanted to touch base while I have a minute. Unfortunately, there are ducks flying around and around and around my apartment and they are making the loudest ruckus. It's drivin' me nuts!

So I have a houseguest for the next couple of days. My friend Jordan moved back from New Zealand and decided to visit with me a bit ( since I haven't seen him in years ). He has mentioned wanting to be my roommate and I'm still giving the idea some thought. More against for just because I'm terrified of living with people. He's a silly great guy. Last night Angie and Dan were over.. great times!! Jordan was really, really quiet.. usually he's just a talkative goofball. He's sorta in a time warp having just moved back and all.. and I suppose the move in general has thrown him for a loop. Lastnight neither of us could sleep though. We stayed up til around 5 goofin' off and makin jokes.. though we did have a few serious convo's in there. He forgot to bring his clothes and whatnot so he just left to head back to celina to collect everything. Who leaves for a trip and forgets their bag? Apparently Jordan! He'll be back this afternoon and then he'll leave again on Tuesday.

Other things are the same. My baby is growin like a lil weed! I miss him and I can't wait to get back home for a couple of days! Plus, my sis needs some sleep!!!

So confrontation ended nicely with a certain someone and myself. Things are all better in my world now. And as I found out tonight.. in that person's world too! Cheers!

So I've been in a weird mood as of late. I sorta feel like I'm drifting in and out of every day.. but not really living. Sorta like I'm invisible and sitting back watching the world go by. I just think about how much life has changed for me over the last few years.. and sometimes it's just a bit overwhelming. It doesn't feel like 5 years have gone by since I was living in Bamaland. Wow. That is such a long time. I mean.. I moved from my hometown and away from everything I knew and loved, I lost touch with my best friend of 10+ years and have no idea where she ended up, both my pup charlotte and kitty cocoa who I had by my side for over 18 years both passed away, my sister got married and had a kid, I was involved in a traumatic life changing event that occurred in Nashville, I took my first plane flight for crying out loud!, I've had friends and lovers come and go, I sold my first car, relocated 3 times in Ohio, attended two different colleges, had a couple jobs, been fired... I mean the list just goes on and on. But where has the time gone? It feels like all of this happened within the last 5 months.. not years.

So here I am. I have a loving family, wonderful friends, and pets I cherish. I live in a comfy apartment with great neighbors.. and a car that I've wanted for the longest time. My nephew has entered my life and I now know that "love at first sight" is real. Maybe this weird feeling is satisfaction. I can honestly say I'm blessed.. and there is nothing I crave. There are certainly things I miss.. and things I'd change about the past if possible.. but I'm content.

People suck.

Most people wonder why I have so many friggin' pets. I think in large part it's because I'm not a big fan of people. In order to make up for this lack of enthusiasm with mankind and my lack of day to day interactions with actual human beings, I surround myself with other animate objects.. like my pets. People are a constant disappointment and I limit myself in how attached I actually become to someone. Trust me, I'm not putting myself on a pedestal here either. I suck just as much as the next person. But one thing I will give myself credit for is that I accept people for who they are.. and rarely am I blatantly rude. I love my friends dearly and I always support them and want them to know that I love them for being them. I don't want them to change a thing about themselves. I have such diverse friends.. and I would like to think that is a result of me screening them wisely. I respect the fact that other people have feelings and I never want to have a negative impact on someone. Sure, I've failed at this feat many times in the past.. but I always keep trying. That is SO much more than I can say for most people. So I'm now faced with a dilemma. My typical reaction to someone really pissing me off results in the following ..

I first figure out how pissed off I should be about the incident. I analyze what a person did or said in every way imaginable and try to find rationale in it. I either end up slightly annoyed, annoyed, or insanely pissed.

Next I think about how much I care for the person and how important they are in my life. Are they someone I can depend on? Are they someone I enjoy being around? Are they someone that I'd do anything in the world for? Are they genuine?

Then I'm left with the scale. Since confrontation is rarely an option ( and implemented only in special relationships that are not sensitive to such behavior ) I either dismiss them from my life or I dismiss what they have done as a mishap and continue on.

It is at this juncture I find myself. Considering I'm very displeased about some one's comment/actions .. I'm left to decide whether they are a critical part of my life's infrastructure or are they merely an accessory that I'm better off without.
.. Decisions, decisions.

A little bit of advice..

Throughout my life I have learned lesson after lesson the hard way. Even if I hadn't experienced them firsthand, I probably wouldn't have listened had I been warned. However, seeing as to how no one that reads this would ever find themselves in the situation I found myself in during the last three weeks.. I'm going to go ahead and warn you all.

Life Lesson #1: Never ever EVER out your boss's gay nephew directly to your boss's face. Furthermore, do NOT tell your boss that you are dating said gay nephew's supposed boyfriend.

Apparently this is grounds for employment termination. Yes, I was fired. I've been told by many people that " they can't do that!" Well! They did! I opened my big mouth assuming that everyone knew this kid was gay.. I mean hell.. he walks gay, talks gay, acts gay, dresses in drag on his off time, and wears pink shoes to work. My boss was a f'n dumbass for not realizing that he was gay on her own. But, I won't be bitter about the whole thing. Anyone that knows me knows I'd rather be layin around sleeping then cleaning tanning beds. ;-) PLUS, now I can go home and see my nephew anytime I want!!!

On a side note, I went on what I think may be a date lastnight. No clue. I'm still weirded out by the whole thing.

Anyways, I'm off to quilt.

Things are going well here. I've officially made it through my third day of work. Now I get at least one day off before it all begins again. I know that I work on Thursday, Friday, Saturday and Sunday. Tuesday is sorta up in the air right now. Becky ( my boss/the salon owner) is suppose to call and let me know if she is going to be there. I'd really like to lay around on my ass all day tomorrow but there are about a million things that I need to get done. I've been putting way too many things off..

Work was a success today. We actually got a lot of cleaning done.. I cleaned the bathroom really well and then cleaned ALL the walls from top to bottom in the ENTIRE salon. We changed the bulbs out in the beds today and cleaned/vacuumed the entire beds.. those things get SO dusty! We also continued on with the training and I got to actually work with clients today. Becky still worked the sales pitch but I greeted them and did all the computer work including transactions.. which gets SO confusing. I also got to meet Dave today which is the co-owner. Hes a bit more stern than Becky but still a very nice guy. He basically went over sale goals and the emphasis of meeting/exceeding the PPA and PPLA. I should start making commission next week.. which will be nice. I'll also get a raise when I become a certified consultant which will probably be in another week. I'm gaining a lot of sales experience here and meeting a lot of really nice people. Becky was so sweet.. she brought me in an Easter bag today.. you can tell she use to be a teacher ;-) They have a certain aura about them.. and are usually crafty and do cutesy things. I think that is about it on the work front. Wish me luck!

I haven't really had much of a social life lately. I keep making plans with people ( like MR and SP ) but I also keep cancelling b/c I'm just not use to working so I get tired early. I think I may have plans with a fella this week but I haven't really made up my mind yet. We'll see.

Rhett is doing much better. He actually has solid poo! He still has a LONG time left with his meds.. and I'm hoping he continues to improve.

As for Hayden.. his umbilical cord fell off today!!! Which is kinda nice b/c that thing looked like a gross lil terd.. or raisin ( put nicely ). Hayden will go in for his 2 wk checkup on Wednesday. I can't believe he is already this old. It feels like yesterday I was driving to the hospital to wait on his birth! He truly is a lil doll.. so cute!

K.. off to bed I go.. or the couch I suppose I should say. I never sleep in my bed if I'm alone here. And can I just say.. spoonin Rhett on the couch is a bit uncomfy.. there just isn't enough room during the night!!

Anyways.. hope everyone had a great easter!!!

I love him..

In this picture he has his tiny hand wrapped around my finger...
but for the rest of his life I'll be wrapped around his..
.. he's perfect..

Quickie... nooo, not that kind ;-)

So I'm still working on the post from the whole nephew-being-born experience.. it's a really long one so I'm working on it here and there. So in the meantime I'm gonna do a quick update..

Things have been going good here. I haven't fallen, contracted any illness, or had much boy drama.. which is a sickness all of its own! On Saturday I drove out and stayed the night with my sister and justin so that I could take care of my baby Hayden during the night while Venus was still recovering. It was a stressful time actually.. venus is SO emotional right now, bless her heart! She'll come out of it eventually. Sometimes it's just so hard being female. Justin is doing a great job with the new baby and helping out around the house. He had 11 days off of work and instead of resting he was constantly up doing something.. whether it be feeding/spoilin the baby, laundry, tending to the pets, cleaning, etc.

Rhett on the other hand has not been so well. After we got back home on Sunday, Rhett got the diarrhea. This morning I woke up and there was a huge puddle of blood on my bathroom floor ( thank heavens it wasn't the carpet! ) so I immediately got some clothes on and headed to the vet. I decided to take him to Barnesville b/c I knew the bill would be expensive and wanted to put it on my mom's tab there. For the last couple of days I had been tellin' everyone that I think he has parvo.. and everyone dismissed the idea.. even the vet at first. For anyone who isn't familiar with parvo, it has a VERY distinct smell. So after the fecal sample was taken everyone nearly gagged and they decided to test for parvo! SO in the end we are now treating him for parvo or corona virus .. which the treatments are very similar. He is on flagil, amoxi ( just incase it is something bacterial ), gastro chews and I had to bring home a lactate ringer to give him sub-Q fluids. I don't like stickin him with a needle and giving him fluids under his skin ( camel hump ) but I suppose it must be done.. I'm not sure if the outcome will be favorable.. but I certainly hope he makes it through..

Oh.. I have a job. I had a call from ImageSun which is a tanning salon here in hilliard. They asked me to come in for an interview yesterday ( tuesday ) at 4:30. I did. Then I got hired on the spot. I start this friday at 2:pm. It's nice b/c I'm salaried and get bonuses and commission.. so that'll be nice. Any extra money to help spoil the baby will be great! Oh.. AND I get free tanning and other perqs!!!! No more tanpro which is where I usually go to the tanning bed. I still can't believe someone was silly enough to hire me ;-)

Other than that I'm headed to the doc tomorrow. It'll be my second appointment with a doc this week.. BLAH I say! No fun.. but at least I'm not "sick" or anything.. just basically routine stuff.