... breakups SUCK but family ROCKS

ok.. so not to sound conceited.. but getting a date is not too difficult for me. However, the thing that sucks about breaking up with someone you've been dating for over two years is that they can't be replaced quickly. So basically I just sit around pitying myself and missing him when I need to just suck it up.. go out.. find me a guy .. and do this whole dating/breaking up thing all over again!! But.. that's easier said than done as well. Not to mention I'm steal dealing with this whole sexual assault that happened in Nashville so its hard to trust people or feel comfortable around males. The one guy that I've let in juuuuust a lil ended up disappearing on me.. AGAIN.. which I suppose is just the dynamics of the relationship. I keep comparing people to Shaun and while I thought he was an ass while we are dating.. I'm only comparing potential dates to the good things about him. I haven't cried.. which is always good. After the saga with Eric, my much regretted dream beau, I've learned that tears are only for the good moments in relationships. Plus, Shaun cried enough for the both of us. It's strange to go from dating assholes who don't show emotion at all to date Shaun who is, to be quite honest, an emotional wreck. I've attempted in every way possible to show him how much I care and the guestures were just never reciprocated. So now it's time to deal with it.. pack away every last shread of relationship evidence that is around my apartment.. lean on friends .. and focus on the other aspects of my life that I've almost forgotten existed. If Kristin isn't busy tomorrow maybe I'll get to see her.. she always has a brutally honest way of tellin' me that Shaun is an ass and I'd be better off with someone else. And as much as I'd like to scream that she's wrong.. she couldn't be more right. I luv ya girl. So anways after I see Kristin ( if I do ) then I'll probably tidy up the apartment, pack up some things, round up the herd, and head on home to be with my momma, diddy, and sissy .. and Justin b/c he feels more like my brother than brother-in-law.. always helping me out. My family always has a way of taking me in, laughing with me, teasing me, and we live the simple life.. we lay around and watch movies, eat some home cooked meals ( southern style! ), and most importantly we spend time with our animals. It's great b/c even though I can't reach people or let people reach me 100% my family is right on. I'd hope all families are like that. However, it's been my experience that I'm a bit more open with my family than most. I talk about every single aspect of my life and every single experience I have.. ranges from sex to studying. And I never hesitate to tell momma that diddy is cranky cuz he wants some tang. ;-) I love my parents.. and my extremely shy genetically linked best friend, Venus. Anyways .. enough bout that..
DaVinci Code on FRIDAY.. I love tom hanks, paul bettany, and the book so I'm thinkin it will be a great movie..

Alright... enough about life... it's nearly 4 so I should down some type of sleep aid and TRY to sleep. I worry too much about my dog to sleep peacefully on my own.. =(