I apologize for being reclusive as of late. I haven't really been talking to anyone about what has been going on. Mainly b/c I know that there is nothing anyone can say that will make me feel better. I feel like I need time to accept everything and I apologize to everyone.. you all are such incredible friends and way too understanding with me. I love you all and as soon as I crawl out from the rock I live under I'll get in touch with everyone. For now it's school, lots of doctors and oddly Michael R. b/c for some reason he has a way of making me forget about the rest of the world when I'm with him.. my life and its woes.. maybe sometimes you need to be around a person your not exactly yourself with and tuck the real you away for awhile..
anyways.. i love u all and i miss u all...